fuck
its all a fucking joke.
im kidding myself.
were all fucking kidding ourselves.
laugh it up baby.
shaking and burning
im losing my fucking head
and heart
and everything else
im trying so hard to become this cold shell of a human to please him
when really all im doing is making everything hurt more
kidding myself
kidding ourselves
kidding. lying. hiding.
stinging. burning. biting. breaking. ripping. tearing. running. bleeding. crying. punching. writhing. twisting. fighting. losing. hurting. screaming. dying.
oh, dying
what a lovely, promising thought.
